Gary Busey is my cheerleader.

I went to see an endocrinologist on Friday and was very happy with the initial meeting. I had been working with an endocrinologist in Kansas a long time ago and although I know they are still doctors, there is something about working with a specialist that makes you feel like you are getting better care for your specific issues. Its like knowing I can always use a regular hair brush but I gett better results for curly hair when I use a pick.

(An aside about health insurance and Kaiser Permanente...I wish that the company I worked at contributed or had them as a program because I am paying out of pocket however every experience I've had and all the benefits they offer have been completely worth it.)

One thing the doctor did say which stuck in my head was I needed to be more aggressive in my approach to eating and weight management/loss. An image popped up of when Gary Busey told a reporter he would tear the endocrine system from their body and behind him, a group of cheerleaders shouting "Be aggressive...B-E AGGRESSIVE!" My brain added the cheerleaders...

After having been aggressive with eating very early on (remember the fat and fiber plan from Weight Watchers?) and doing low-fat for a number of years...and then losing my gall bladder in the process...I got tired of following a diet. I'm just not very good at counting calories or measuring, etc. I know that modern plans give you the skills to estimate portions and for the most part I know what those equivalents are.

When it comes to food, I'm still trying to figure out what goes on in my head. Typically if I buy good food and snacks, I'll eat them. If I've had a particularly stressful day (pretty rare but sometimes my commute is stressful or if Jim has to work that night, that makes me stressed) when I get home really the last thing I want to do is cook. We've tried making our kitchen a place where we want to be because I know sometimes the issue is mental.

I think I just need to try more tactics so that I'm doing more food prep at the beginning of the week so I have no excuses. I have given some thought into some of the already prepared food services but I typically hate the taste of microwave meals and a lot of those plans you still have to do a lot of prep work anyway.

So later today I'm going to make a big list of everything, give myself some goals, and work out some of this aggression I need to have!